I will always reblog things like this, it won’t ruin your blog or the look of it, and this could potentially save a life.
So I’ve been leasing a mare since last November. Her name is Belle, she’s a 17.1hh Dutch Warmblood. To put it bluntly she’s bitch. Belle is suppose to help me get to the higher levels so I could go back and train Rio up. But every time I get on that mare it’s one giant fight after another, pretty soon she shuts down and does everything she can to get me off. Usually I stay on, but I’ve fallen off her more in the past few months, than I have in the past two years. I even compressed my vertebra this winter and was off for a month from a fall off of her. Now, we do have had some good days, and when we’re both on we look stunning. But when one of us isn’t on, she has a melt down. It’s not a matter of sitting her fits better, because I can sit her fits just fine until she REALLY wants me off. Belle isn’t in any physical pain that would cause her to act out, she’s just always been a bitch. I really don’t like riding her at all, I start to get really anxious and I don’t have any confidence on her anymore. The first show of this season starts Friday, but I don’t want to go at all. I know I’ll get out there and either get hurt or look stupid. You either go into the ring and do well, or you don’t go in at all. I’m starting to think about skipping this show season because of her, but I know that’s going to hurt my riding and there are so many people waiting for me to fuck up. Either way I don’t feel good about it. I have the third option of showing Rio in only medal and 3’0” Eq because he has a leaser who will be doing some other classes. It could be nice to only have two classes to worry about. But I don’t know if there’s enough horse there to do that and do the classes the leaser wants to do as well. Either way, I have to talk to my trainer about it tomorrow but I’m really dreading that. I feel like I would have wasted her time and her hard work by telling her I may not show. Oh well, I guess I’ll just have to wait and see what happens.